Hey there! My name is Hannah Watkins, and I am a stay-at-home mom. I live in the Indianapolis area with my husband of 4 years, our 7-month-old son and 3-year-old daughter. We also have two dogs, an 8-year-old Australian Shepherd and a 9-year-old Australian Shepherd/Great Pyrenees mix.
I never in a million years thought I would become a blogger. I never thought anyone would be interested in what I had to say, but seeing how many bloggers/influencers there are and how popular it has become got me thinking. I like to think I’ve always been a pretty likeable person, befriending anyone and everyone. I’ve also always enjoyed writing. I majored in Journalism my first year of college, but ended up not doing well at the private college in my hometown. School was not for me…I never really enjoyed the learning aspect. I ended up basically flunking out after my second semester of college. I was in a sorority, and after the first semester, I was put on academic probation because I wasn’t doing well in my classes. I told myself at the time that I just wasn’t smart enough and couldn’t understand the information, but I know now that I just wasn’t trying as hard as I could and was not taking it seriously. I wasn’t using the resources that were available to me and I truly regret that now.
Growing up, I was self-conscious about every aspect of myself. I never considered myself skinny and my weight was always fluctuating. It didn’t help that my mom (as well as my grandpa) would often make comments about my weight. I don’t think she meant any harm, but she has always been a stick with no effort, so I think she expected my body to be the same. I’ll never forget my grandpa at my high school graduation party saying I had a “spare tire” on my stomach. That hurt me to my core…looking back at pictures, I wasn’t even that big! After high school, over the course of a few years, I ended up gaining about 46 lbs. I thought at the time I was the happiest I’d ever been, but it was actually the opposite. I’d never been one to exercise and eat healthy, and it was really starting to catch up to me. When I met my husband, I was at my heaviest. I am down 36 lbs from my heaviest and I feel amazing. I just recently got into working out and eating healthy and I cannot express how much better I feel mentally and physically. I have more energy to give my kiddos, which was my main goal. I noticed since becoming a mother I hadn’t really been feeling like myself or finding joy in the things I used to. Being a stay-at-home mom, my kids have been my main focus. By the time I would get them to bed at night (my toddler refuses to let my husband put her to bed), I just wanted to sit in bed and browse social media mindlessly because I was mentally exhausted. Doing this gives me a creative outlet where I can feel like myself again and exercise my mind.
The worst part of my life that has really made me want to become a blogger is my dad’s alcoholism. I want other women to know that even though bad things happen, you can rise above it and own that shit. My dad was an alcoholic my entire life until he ultimately died from it when he was 56. I was 23-years-old. I’ll go into more detail on his alcoholism and death in other posts, because I could write a book on the shit I had to put up with. I loved my daddy to no end and was a daddy’s girl through and through, because he was my dad and he did truly love me, but he just had a sickness that he could not overcome. I had so much hate toward him before and after his death and ended up going to therapy (which I will also make separate posts about) and it really saved my life. I love that the stigma of therapy is starting to dissolve, and our society is starting to take mental health more seriously. Sometimes life is fucking hard, and we all need to have each other’s backs. We’re all in this together.
My main focuses for this blog will be anxiety and being a stay-at-home mom/motherhood in general. I also want to eventually start doing some workouts geared toward mothers…how to build your core, back and arm strength. I will throw in a little bit of everything here and there, but those will be my main subjects. Thank you so much for reading and I hope you stick around! Also, feel free to ask me anything…I am an open book!